Seraphyne

Let me properly introduce myself. I’m a Brazilian girl, age of 26. My name? Well, you can call me Seraphyne or Sera. That’s my name in World of Warcraft (Ysera server) and that’s how all my friends know me.

I’m a very curious person. I question a lot of rules, standards, patterns and I don’t know if that’s a nice thing to do after all. It seems that in the end I even question myself question all that! /laugh I’m very honest with myself and with the ones around me. I live here at Brazil totally because I have to, not because I want to. I really don’t like the way that people think about life here, the way we treat people, the violence that is out of control in this place and all I’ve wanted was to get out of here to have a better life. My journey through USA I will tell you all in my next post.

I love to make new friends. I’m a very social person. Love to talk to people, make new friends and keep the old ones closest to my heart. I’m very passionate in everything I do. I try my best and I don’t back away till I see that its not over or finished. I don’t bail on people and if I make a promise I stick to it. Even if that promise takes and drain a lot of energy I don’t give up easily cause if I give you my word that’s how it is. No matter what, I will do whatever takes to make that happened. Sometimes I wonder if that is a good quality. I thought it was and to be honest I was proud being like that. Now, after a few events I don’t see that as a good quality anymore.

Here in my town I’m very lonely because, as I said before, I feel all the time in this country that I don’t belong here. In every way. So I keep my social life in WoW. I have made really good friends in this so to speak for some “game”. Some I can say here that are close to my heart is Amrys, Phella, Rockstar, Patrifar, Pithicus. They are very special to me. Some of them know that, some doesn’t.

Once I wrote this about myself and each time that time goes by I see that I wasn’t wrong and I chose the right words to describe me.

“I’m a gentle, sensitive person with a deep understanding of people and a very tolerant, accepting, non judgmental approach towards life. In a noisy, competitive atmosphere I’m often receding and withdrawn for; I am not an aggressive, forceful person, and I intensely dislike conflict. In fact I tend to be somewhat passive, to wait, watch, observe, feel and know much – but to act little. Letting things resolve or work themselves out in their own way, rather than directing or forcing your will upon them, is often my way of dealing with problems.

I am a gambler and an adventurer at heart, one who loves to take risks, to discover and explore new worlds, and to take the untried path rather than the safe, reliable one. I’m an independent soul, freedom-loving, and often very restless. I need a lifestyle that provides opportunities for travel, movement, change, and meeting new people. A steady routine which offers much in the way of security but little in the way of space and freedom is odious to me.”

What I think its funny in all this is that the second paragraph annoys me cause I know its true! But I wish I was different. /laugh Most of my mistakes in life I did because of my restless soul, cause of my passion for take risks and if you do definitely you will get hurt. But all I know is that I don’t know how to be different. I must accept who I am and live with it. To be honest, no one cant know me. You have experience me.

Welcome to my world.